My first book, "A Story of the Beginning" (2016), was more a collection of thoughts, ideas, and desires from my time at our local renaissance festival and being a history nerd then it was a professional attempt at writing. I combined the two loves of festivals & history and out came a story. Its historical accuracy is questionable, as are the structure, grammar, and everything else that a "professional" author should be. Personally, its trash (and I am the one that wrote it!

). However, its raw spirit, emotions, and love of the characters & story left something to be desired. A short story in the end, barely over 100 pages.
That book would sit collecting dust; I never promoted it beyond the circles of my friends, etc. I think I sold 6 copies total initially, 7 or 8 total as of 2023. However, I spent the next 5 years putting my nose to the ground and really wanting to "get it right" because of that
left something to be desired feeling I had. I ended up writing another book with the same character & story set several months later after the original book's story, but with 5 years of academic research, 10 historical books to back it up, and writing multiple drafts. A soft reboot if you will. What came out in 2021 was "No Tears (Northern Company)". Night & day differences. The 2021 book was inspired with that 2016 original. So, I went back and in 2022, I rewrote my original book into "A Story of the Beginning (Revised Edition)". It kept the same spirit & structure of the original, but utilized proper historical facts and corrected writing norms, while using "No Tears" as its new canon basis. What came out of the 2022 rewrite was what I was trying to go for in 2016 but failed due to limitations of being a new author with ZERO EXPERIENCE in writing books.
I say all of that to say this: it is okay, in my opinion, if your first book is what
YOU want it to be, not what the greater world expects. Go out there, explore and write. Publish it. Let it sit collecting dust for 5 years and go back at it. Or hit the ground running with no regrets and never do a rewrite and just write, write, write. Never look back. Either approach, the beginning is the same:
just write. Its the only way you will get past any hurdles you have. Enjoy the ride, learn from the mistakes, and understand the difference between healthy criticism and personal self-loathing because of too high of a bar you set for yourself. Find the happy balance and you'll be happy whether it is one book you write or 20 books.
I hope that helps.
