You Don't Care About Me

[afro_dite]

I use to think we were the same exact person,
With the same heart, same brain,
Just different genders and called by similar names,
As a woman I gave you the most valuable thing I own,
My heart,
But I guess the cost wasn’t as profitable as I thought,
I lied awake at night wondering what parts of myself should I rearrange in hopes that you change your mind about me,
But that would’ve been too easy,
I thought the problem was you but really it was me,
I allowed myself to give you control over what I think, see, and even eat,
I wanted to become your perfect version of a woman,
But never questioned if you even deserved it,
You complained constantly about your life,
So I was willing to provide a full ride to a safe space,
With the only strings being loved attached,
But I guess you didn’t want that,
Instead you wanted to stay in a place where the hurt and the pain can always remain,
I wanted to save you
But when you showed your true colors I realized I don’t even know who you are,
I tried to convince myself that it was just intoxication,
I really wanted to believe,
But how long can I continue to stay deceived,
And try to run away from the truth which is you don’t care about me,
At least as much as I cared about you,
Now I think about why did I allow myself to be blind,
By the charm, the way you dignify yourself,
The way I thought you really cared about my health, my heart and my mind,
But that was just a lie,
Now I have to go to re-find myself,
So I take off the shackles you call friendship,
Because I’d rather be alone than deal with the hardship you relinquish on me,

[Gift Salami]

No one is to be blamed for having feelings towards someone and it not being reciprocated.Our only fault is not being able to let go.