Good JOB!!!
May I Share with you My Naked Pain!!
Called:
Fear .... Why
Fear Not... How?
I woke up sweating from a nightmare.
With fear in my heart, in result of death.
I remember hiding and running from a loved one. Scared for my life... Waking up in panic.
And fear.
I fear the process of GREIVING may have came to an end.
I feared Everytime I cried alone on the cold floor.
I feared Everytime the movie plot, setting, and the main character didn't come to an end, still rolling.
I feared for the life of my parents, as a result, untreated
I feared Everytime slipping into old ways.
I feared Everytime I would say sorry for the words and actions of, to validate myself.
I feared waking up everyday, rerun, to the point I knew how the day was going to be, what was gonna be said and reactions, just by the look in the eye.
I feared Everytime a ding came on the phone.
I feared the distance between.
I feared the lack of communication, as a result I was ignored... But I talk to much?
I feared how I was the victim, but He took the role.
I feared being alone.
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I used to fear not being your angel, but can't raise MAN, only hold a hand and guide.
I used to fear us seeing others, in the movie, I was Always crossing a boundary..
I used to fear being untreated and as a result...
I feel healed....but far from it...
I used to fear the doubt & opinions of..., now irrelevant.
I used to fear not being validated and encouragement from Him
I used to fear Him moving on, happened along time, again, when I heard Him say he regretted choosing me.
I used to fear the regret of saying I Do, but I don't!
I used to fear waking up everyday.
I used to fear talking and opening up, cuz obviously was not heard and still told I'm wrong.
I used feared every night I couldn't tock my babies in, ohh so tight
I blamed me and took accountability, always stuck up for Him, but in reality. According to the documents
I used to always feared to say, He is partially to blame as of 12/15/2018.
I used to fear being the villain, but whatever makes you sleep better at night.
I used to fear sleeping alone, but I've been alone since u got west central.
I used to fear the lack of communication with family, but they have a life as well.
I used to fear plot and motive of the movie.
I used to fear not being ABLE to sway Him to full potential.
I used to fear the lies that laid out to others.
But who is to Judge, if not God, you can't play that role.
For fear, fear only a learned behavior.
Fear alone can kill a soul and ambitions.
Fear should only be used as information.
Fear can Also drive us to regret.
The only fear that is acceptable is, the fear of falling and loud noises. (12/24/2021)
I learned to Fear Not.
Fear Not, the nightmares, it's a sign.
Fear Not waking up, it's a blessing.
Fear Not being lonely, FOR I BEEN HERE THE WHOLE TIME.
FEAR NOT YOUR FAMILY, THEY ARE PROTECTED.
FEAR NOT THE PAST, STEPPING BACK WILL HOLD YOU FROM THE FUTURE.
FEAR NOT VALIDATION, VALIDATE YOURSELF IN THE MIRROR.
BUT WITH A SMILE, AFFIRMATIONZ
FEAR NOT FOUNDATION OR MASCARA
FEAR NOT THE DOUBT IN YOUR HEAD!
FEAR NOT BEING HEARD.
FEAR NOT PAST REGRET.
FEAR NOT AS A RERUN THAT KEEPS PLAYING IN HIS HEAD.
FEAR NOT YOU'RE NOT A VILLAIN OR A VICTIM.
FEAR NOT REGRETS
FEAR NOT CHOICES, THAT ARE NOT YOUR OWN
FEAR NOT, MY CHILD, FEAR NOT THE MISTAKES IF HAVE you OWNd
AND FEAR NOT THE CONSEQUENCES FOR YOU SHOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF THEM BEFORE YOU MADE A DECISION!
Fear Not GREIVING BCUZ THAT HAS CAME TO AN END.
YOU CAN PRESS REWIND MANY TIMES TO REPLAY
FEAR NOT ... YOU CAN'T TAKE BACK THE DAMAGE THAT'S ALREADY DONE.
THE CURTAIN IS CLOSING
NO ROSES AT MY FEET
ONLY THIS BAG OF ROTTEN TOMATOES
I have forgaven
What a defeat!
Dear Fear
No, no...
I used to fear....
Ha,
Today I woke up with you but
I
Will
Fear Not!