The Rant Thread...

[Fran]

I do not detect any shake in your writing so clearly you haven't taken my advice vis a vie the Whiskey.

Ah...but Firefox has built-in spell-check.

Ran out of whiskey, so Bloody Marys last night to the rescue.

Miserable to be unwell especially when you are entertaining small persons but Happy Thanksgiving anyway. Hope you feel better soon.

Thank you, dearest Fran. Dinner has come and gone, and all was good. Still putting away leftovers.

[Tried hotlinking a smilie image from elsewhere; is this not allowed on the board?]

So glad that all went well .. do you have the turkey etc in Dallas?

[Lonestar]

Yes. With the usual cornbread stuffing, cranberry sauce, etc.

[laci_baby]

Ugh. This week has been horrible! It started out with a simple argument with a loved friend that i use to be really close to. Everyone keeps telling me to stay away from him because he'll hurt me, and I'm even telling myself that, and yet i cant get away from him! Whats sad is i don't even really want to. One minute i feel like I'm running from him and the next I'm looking for him. It's exhausting. Anyway... somewhere in the middle the argument turned to an actual fight and hatred is up in the air and now we're both miserable. So now we're acting like we hate each other but publicly throwing out sad innuendos at each other that no one, except us and close friends, are even getting. I keep trying to fix it and every time i do it gets thrown back in my face or ignored. So he doesn't even want to fix it! But every time i try to move on and be happy he jumps in and tears it all down again. He has been a HUGE part of my life for the last 6 years (even though absent through most of that) and he's the reason i am who i am and i can't imagine a life without him. I don't want to lose him, he's a great friend, but it doesn't sound like he wants anything to do with me until he thinks there's a chance i had forgotten him then he throws himself back in the loop and confuses me all over again. So because of this craziness i haven't slept in days and actually feel like I'm becoming an Insomniac because of it. I've been curled up in a fetal position for two days in my warm bed with nothing but Snuff (Slipknot) going on in the background. No sleep in sight. I've heard that he's pretty much in the same shape. My boss even sent me home yesterday with a "You look like your dying. Go home." And i can guarantee that it's not because she's a nice person. EVER. So i must look as bad as i feel.
Normally i would go with my heart/head/guts but what do you do when the three tings you trust more than anything else are screaming out different answers? Why do people feel the need to, not only hurt each other, but to hurt themselves? Are we really that masochistic that we go looking for something, or someone, to share that extreme pain with? To hurt each other? Why is it that even when we wear our hearts on our sleeves we still cover it up completely? I guess my rant today is... Why are people so friggin clueless?
It's so frustrating... Probably not what Mike had in mind for the rant page... but that's all i have to rant about at the moment. Sorry.

[StephenKingman]

I was wondering where you had got to Laci, hey chin up, im sorry you are feeling like that, i read your post a few times and it looks like you are both in a bad place and are just taking it out on each other until one buckles and tries to make it all good. Sadly people do hurt others, mostly due to frustration and immaturity etc, i dont know the ins and outs of you two guys but it sounds like you love each other and for whatever reason you are stuck in a rut. All i can advise is you just hang in there, do whatever will make you feel better on your own, just pick up a few poems, watch a few comedies and spend some time with friends. If your heart is still aching for him, give him a ring and tell him that you would like to work it out then leave the ball in his court, his reply will speak volumes. He would be mad not to take bubbly and fun girl like you

I dont know all the facts here but hey life is too short to be unhappy so you sort yourself out and start smiling again.

Hug, babe.

[Fran]

laci_baby ... so sad to read your post. We've all been in similar situations in our lives - guess it's part of the price for being human. 'The pain now is part of the happiness then' ... I think that was C S Lewis but I may be misquoting.

I'm loath to give anyone relationship advice but from your post I would suggest a good cry & then think about you both taking a good long break from each other so that you can stand back and look at your relationship objectively ... you can't do that while in the middle of an emotional tsunami.

Of course you know more about the situation than I do but with respect I would suggest that you do need to keep in mind that there are such things as mutually destructive relationships & there are people how simply should not be together.

You don't want to hear this now but things will get better and we will have the crazy laci_baby posts to lift our dull days.

[laci_baby]

Thank you both, Mike and Fran! Both of you helped in ways you'll never know. Your both right... It's more complicated than i can ever describe on here without being too open, but the pains still there.
I dont think i know what's going on anymore than he does but neither of us seem to find a middle ground that accepts the both of us. I agree with what you said, Fran, about people having destructive relationships, and sadly i believe this is one. I think i've known it for a while. We tried the space thing before and went five years without any communication whats-so-ever only to fall facedown into something bigger. If five years isn't enough time to figure everything maybe it's not suppose to happen. But that's the point, right? You have to take the good with the bad or not at all? I sent him a long email (I do love my long emails...) explaining why we can't be around eachother and, so far, i think it's the right choice. Now if i can get the rest of my internal organs to believe that...

Hopefully the crazy posts will resume soon. And thank you for the hug Mike. Even from Ireland... it helped.

[Lonestar]

I recently went through a gut [and-other-body-part] -wrenching ordeal similar to the one you describe Laci, and you have my sincerest sympathy. *big hug*

[laci_baby]

Yays! I'm getting hugs left and right now! heehee...
What else would help if not a few hugs? Thanks Michael!
I am sorry for anyone that's ever had to feel like this though.
So you have my sympathy as well, darling.

[laci_baby]

Ugh! So tonight a friend, Matt, was over at my house and a neighbor comes freaking out banging on my door all crazy like. So we go and see if she's okay and she tells us Matt's car got broken into and she saw it happen. Some inappropriate word smashed through the window of his Lexxus! And what, dare you ask, did they take? A .99 cent cookie. MY .99 CENT COOKIE!
How dare they! People are insane, i swear. I wanted that cookie! I bought that cookie fair and square! That makes it mine! Friggin losers.. anyway... Matt's mad and going insane and i'm just depressed (I mean... it was my cookie.) But the butt of it all is: The doors wasnt even locked. haha... SO back on the cookie, since that is the most important part, I can already tell today is going to suck because that was going to be my breakfast. Poor cookie. I hope they choked on it. haha....

[Stinkin' Fascist]

And hoped they tripped running away and lost the cookie, or died eating the cookie, or of anxiety...
But I love that story all the same and people understand the cookie in our comversation.

And that's the way the cookie crumbles!
Corny, I know haha, but I had to.


Alas, everyone knows about my recent ongoing virus problemo. and though back on the site, i have pop ups again haha.

And some major major issues with my boyfriend and his dear mother, who is now talking crap about my best friend and saying rude stuff about her. So now it's taking every last scrap of me to bite my tongue for his sake and not talk to his mum about it...

And my rat Hef died
Poor little man, he got sick from the cold...

[laci_baby]

Boy our lives sure are suckily my darling Dee.
With your poor Hef and crazy everything and my poor everything and crazy cookie. What to do!?

[Stinkin' Fascist]

The solution my dear?

Meetup and runaway...

Anywho, I know it's small stuff, but I was happy today and then for some reason later on I was all quiet and unhappy. or i don't know, but i guess i couldn't find something to necessarily make me real happy, though i wasn't unhappy... if that makes sense to anyone but me and Dum...

And I had a tummy ache, but on the plus side got ramen in bed haha.

But I'm really unhappy that apparently I have 3 of 5 necessary credits for this school period when I could have swore I had 6... Stupid school program thingy.

[StephenKingman]

More of a secondary rant....

Ireland passed a very unfair Budget yesterday which cut money from carers of the blind, disabled, people claiming Jobseekers allowance and making low-paid workers bear a hefty brunt compared to the high earners. Our minister tried to bluff over this issue by claiming that higher earners are paying more tax but that is because they can afford to and even more in my opinion. Our government ministers took a paltry pay cut and the culprits at the top of the banking industry remain untouched and on huge salaries.

I say its a secondary rant because after a quick calculation of different tax bands and a new 'Social Contribution' levy im only 50 or so euro less well off as im lucky to have a very good job, and im a single man with no kids and can cover my rent and enough for holidays (Thank God) but im angry for some of my friends who are on 3-day weeks and now will be down money for the other 2 days, some others who are carers and are even worse off now, not to mention the upcoming student fees which will cripple families. The poor always end up paying the mistakes of the rich and we havent got the bloody will to fight back and revolt, God we are being screwed left right and centre and the few cute rascals at the very top know this well and keep on cutting and cutting

[Fran]

We Irish are really pissed at the moment (and not from drink this time)

I'm fed up with cold, freezing weather & I absolutely dread driving in frosty weather. I'm praying hard for some normal 'soft' Irish weather

[StephenKingman]

We Irish are really pissed at the moment (and not from drink this time)

I'm fed up with cold, freezing weather & I absolutely dread driving in frosty weather. I'm praying hard for some normal 'soft' Irish weather

I hear you, the snow was a novelty at first but its seriously boring now, every morning the same old thing- fill 2 kettles and douse the car, then sit in the freezing interior and wait for the car to heat before crawling to work, not to mention the footpaths being lethal and the cold stopping travel and sport. Move on now please.

The rumors arent helping either- the Met saying it may continue until February whereas our own Evelyn Cusack reassuring us a thaw may come every night...with her trademark cheery Good Evening as a breezy sign off, yeah its a lovely evening!

Drive safe Fran.