Just a poem I wrote

[Crystal Roubique]

Let me go
I can't take this anymore

Please let me go
What is it you're holding on for?

Whatever it is you have or had for me it isn't love
Always feeling sick, I'm going through withdraws
Stuck, numb, going nowhere, addicted to you
My favorite drug

The way I could feel you flow through my veins
Your warmth flooding through me
Such intense heat, driving me insane

Day after day, you were the only thing I looked forward to
Desperate for your love, craving your touch, needing you so bad, wanting you so much
I gave you my all, everything I had till there was nothing left
I guess it wasn't enough
I'm lost not knowing what to do


In the beginning things were great
We were happy
That didn't last long, don't know what went wrong
Love slowly fading, turning into a burning hate

I started to feel alone
Loneliness lurking, waiting to engulf me
You didn't even notice or you just didn't care
You were always too busy, focused on something else or texting on your phone

Darkness all around me, loneliness is winning
You never did a thing, not once put up a fight
Just sat there and watched as I cried myself to sleep at night
Still feeling alone, little did I know
Alone was just the beginning

Why won't you just let me go?
What could you possibly be getting out of this?
Do you just like to see me hurt?
Because this, what you're doing to me, is f****g wrong
Its f****g torture
f****g let me go
But you are enjoying this
You like having such control

Misery is now here, making me realize loneliness wasn't sh*t
I'm so tired . Tired of hurting, the pain is so intense
Tired of crying, the tears just won't stop
I want them to, it just doesn't make sense
Tired of feeling alone and tired of feeling like I'm not good enough
Tired of you hitting me
I get it, you're so f****g tough
Tired of not being able to please you and tired of even wanting to try
Tired of feeling like I need you
Tired of wanting to die
Tired of holding on to nothing , nothing but a soon to be memory
A self centered, ungrateful, selfish, greedy memory
That believes he's worth more than what he truly is
A memory that will be filled with hurt and regret
A memory that will one day realize that he was wrong
A memory that will f****g miss me
Sorry that he lost someone that loved him completely
With all his imperfect flaws
Someone who stayed by his side no matter what
Until he pushed her so far, made her so tired
That finally she had to give up