My Life and My Everything

[Leelin Alcantara]

My heart is broken, my tears fell to the ground
The rain is so heavy, a bucket filled with my tears and the pain inside.
Excruciating, so great, so deep that no words can explain
All I want is to hide, to cry and burst out all my feelings
Yet I stayed so close deep within me embracing all the pain inside.

Who can feel what I felt, who can give me the help?
What can they tell me? How will they comfort my soul?
The rain is so heavy, bucket filled with my tears
All flushed into my heart and goes deep down into my core.

So many times I let it go, letting it pass,
Shielding myself not to be hurt
Into my mind, I always said; 'there's no way that I can't manage.'
But what is happening now? Seemed all is gone,
Seemed all is going to fall apart

Without a strength, my feet and heart began to shake
Confusions and questions, depression
They all are starting to devour my flesh;
My bread all spoiled, my well is dried up
My soul in chaos, my world is about to fall apart.

What my eyes see is all darkness, I felt my heart stops,
Where shall I go, To whom shall I call?
Who will restore my life? Who will show me the light?
How can I continue my journey, who will be my guide?

In silence I felt abandoned and forgotten, my soul is yearning;
Where is God, my Creator, Why Am I abandoned?
Then a voice I did hear speaking to me so gently, my God and my all
My Redeemer, and my Refuge
To You, I am begging, please rescue me and my soul.

The moment has come that I have to accept my end;
I lifted up my soul, my spirit I surrendered;
I began to let go, I said, 'Lord, to You I now return.

Then a voice I did heard speaking to me so gently;
From the depths of my heart, this voice I heard so clearly;
It says ' My child, get up, for you will live; And your time has not yet come'.
Then I felt a great lightness in my being, I felt everything is renewed;

I was speechless, dumbfounded, I remained still and silent;
I listened to my heart and it slowly starts to have a beat deep within.
I felt a great lightness in my being, I felt everything renewed;
Now my life is restored! My God is so gracious!

From there, I stand up and continue to live;
I continue to journey and proclaim God's Mighty deeds;
I sing with jubilation, in every moment of everyday;
And I shout 'How good is the Lord, How Great is His Love for me!'

This new life that God gave me I consider it to be Holy
His Graciousness is without end, All these He made me see;
Undeserving yet loved;
So unworthy yet given the dignity.

Now my heart's desire is to praise and Glorify God's Holy Name
My Beloved, my Great Healer, my Savior and my friend.
My Jesus, my Great King and my Redeemer;
My joy is to praise You, Lord, my Life, my everything.

[Chandana_VG]

It feels to be a good potery.