Lost With Regret

[Ana85]

My life is a mess,
tired of feeling so stressed,
why does it hurt when I listen to this,
because I know I haven't come close to reaching my best.

I am lost in a maze,
and cant find my way out,
is heaven for real,
and what brought on this doubt?

I worked so hard to get well on my own,
no rehab, no doctor,
I suffered alone.

I felt freedom at last,
It had been so damn long,
for the first time in a while nothing was wrong.

I was so happy,
I was on the right track,
what the hell happened,
why'd I give it all back?

There is no one to blame,
excuses must cease,
why am I not comfortable when living in peace?

I left my family, my home,
and all that I know,
crying and broken,
never feeling so low.

Was it all for nothing,
what can I say,
every blessing God gives me,
I just throw away.

He must be so tired of dealing with me,
the talents I have,
and the heart he gave me.

But that is the problem,
all I do is feel,
I walk through life stupid,
not knowing what's real.

Everything is a lie,
yet I trust everyone,
I have all of these friends,
yet I'm having no fun.

Everyone sees me,
yet nobody knows,
the good inside of me,
How does it not show?

I was not made for this life that I'm choosing to live,
I get hurt, used, and abused,
then then turn around and forgive.

Wish I could be like all these people I see,
the smart ones that don't wear their hearts on their sleeves.

These same people tell me who I should be,
They are wasting their time,
I cant be no one but me.

[mariajacob1]

This is a very deep poem. It is very emotionally moving and discusses the pain that many people feel in their daily lives.

[timur777]

Beautifully written poem. I love the style and rhyming.

[wantingtoseek]

Good poem very emotional has good rhyme it could use a few corrections. But it's still sounds good.

[Kristen100]

Must say it's deep. A very emotional one there. Another thing is this, you nailed it. Keep it up!

[Patriceleslie22]

Reading this poem almost placed me back in a place of being so Weak, Ungrateful and A VICTIM WITHIN MY OWN MIND. OMG!!!...I REMEMBER BEING WEAK ASS HELL LIKE THAT!!!..smh no disrespect but you have taken the right path to write it down ..Who ever wrote this I can see that you are still stuck there...Through your words, pain and tears in silence unheard. LIFT YOUR HANDS UP HIGH ,BREATHE AND MEDITATE ALONE IN SILENCE FOR JUST YOU AND Pay attention to all of the Problems that result to your purpose in life that is in front of you ...You will eventually realize that the down time and experiences are going to make you proud in the long run..Just For Self..you will see and if anyone ever felt like this the things that you felt you lost or did not deserve the greatest amount of happiness will come to you as well..You'll see...