Reclaiming my heart

[Siwar Taktak]

Trying to distract myself from hating you,
By immersing myself to my writings,it’s true,
So later I can pretend that I'm not mad at you.
When all I wanna do is scream at your face and ask “When did I become so
unimportant to you”?
And then it hit me, maybe I was never a part,
Perhaps I was so unimportant from the start,
Attaching to hope, my feelings, my trust are torn apart,
I thought we shared a bond, only to find out, it was a fragile art,
You said you wanted us to be best friends,but I think you wanted us to end,
Afraid of losing the idea of me, of someone with whom you can feel free, you
kept me bent.
You kept your promise for a while and changed into someone better ,but I guess
it was a pretend,
A temporary trap,
It's okay, I understand.
You didn’t want me,
Yet, you still speak of marrying me,
I don’t wanna hate you, because I’ll end up hating me,
It’s hard not to blame me,for letting you use me,
You played with my love,my friendship,my sincerity,really can’t you see?
I feel like a spinning wheel, unable to break free.
I’m done searching for a spark, every time you leave me in the dark,
Now I clearly see, so I’m taking the key to my heart from you,
You lost your special treatment card a while ago,
So you became just another “someone” to me, no longer with a golden glow.
From now on,if you want me, if you need me , you have to come to earn me
anew ...

[Yara Knight]

I joined onlineBookClub today and this is the first poem that i've read i'm completely hooked , thank you siwar for your powerful words ,feelings, i can't wait for your other posts

[Siwar Taktak]

Thank you so much Yara for your support, Im glad that you liked my poem, can't wait to read yours too <3